Matybigfro

Something that totally buzzes me about all the missional talk is the idea of the 'missio dei'. The idea that in engaging we are just joining in with God, getting out hands dirty and stuck in the stuff God is doing. The comment of Jesus that he is simply doing what he see's his father doing is so remarkable - and with it an obedience to simply do what he knows his father is asking..

Spend anytime in the christian uber world and you find many people sure of their service of God. Doing all sorts of things to service of God. Some are just off their head and mental/stoopid/silly some are well meaning but you suspect have somewhat got it wrong. Like the worship leader with a voice like a strangled cat. Often its surprising how God seems to seek a form of service which entails respect, attention, people doing what you say or thinking your the dog's bollocks.

I've been their in many forms, one of the things i've always enjoyed about my life is sense that it's been obvious or unavoidable to fall into things that seem to be what God intends for my life. At times that's meant being a youth worker, guitarist, worship leader, community worker, project manager and volunteer at different times, some of those things made me look good, sound good or gave me importance. I love listening to, hearing about or catching up with people who are just obviously serving God in authentic way's, joining in Gods great adventure in individual little way's - has gotta be a hero of mine in that regard and i'm really excited for him and his family as they take things in a new direction this year.

Right now I know I'm serving God by earning money, supporting my wife as she trains to be a teacher and living with and being with my mother as she under goes chemotherapy. At first I found the transition from doing a full time paid ministry stuff to working in an office hard, i felt my life lack meaning, directions, an out let for the love of God and service to God. Often these positions, labels and authorities can become enmeshed with our identity and become part of how we perceive ourselves and how feel gratified, satisfied, justified and of worth. Having come to terms and worked though allot of that I'm almost sure that what God has for me to do is care for my mom, love my wife, support them financially and emotional and i think make a little music along the way to stop me going insane. I'm fairly convinced this is missional, cos well I know its what God is doing too. I'm sure there are way's he has for me to join what he's doing in my work place and in my band, but I also don't feel a pressure to christianly perform there though I'm trying to be open to seeing what God is doing and learning more from him in that environment. I'm still excited about what the future may hold and dream's and desires that jumble around in my heart to with music, culture, travel, serving people and communities and seeing the kingdom of God grow but I'm also at peace though that at the moment that i'm not only doing what's right but serving and joining God in doing it.